For years I felt and saw myself as a powerless victim of my abusive, narcissistic and alcoholic childhood. I defined myself by my past experiences  – by what was done to me and what was said about me. I hated my body and my weight and deep inside I saw myself as a powerless, unlovable and worthless waste of space which manifested itself in my depression and self sabotaging and harming behaviour.

My healing journey started over 35 years ago when I became aware of the rage, fear and all the negative emotions from the past that were suppressed within me.  Then after years of soul searching came the acceptance of the Truth that they were NOT caused by the behaviour of others but by my own interpretation of what they meant about me,  based on the negative beliefs that I held about myself. My current life challenges were not "proof" of my powerlessness, worthlessness and not being good enough, as I suspected about myself, but instead, they gave me the opportunity to choose differently. As I had the power to create them, I could now use that power to change them. By letting them go, I let Love in.

         

In 1997, I became a zealous student of 'A Course In Miracles'. This put me on the journey of reconnecting to the true essence of my being and awakening to the Power of the Presence of Love within me.

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"You have so little faith in yourself because you are unwilling to accept the true fact that perfect love is in you and so you seek without for what you cannot find within" ACIM

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I awoke to the Truth that nothing that I did or was done to me could take away that Unconditional Love that resides within me and everyone else.

 

I trained with many Masters and studied many psychotherapy and mind transformation therapies and with courage and my growing forgiveness, gratitude and reprogramming of my subconscious mind, I liberated myself from many self harming behaviours and stopped seeing myself as an unfairly treated powerless victim. My healing journey continues as I take responsibility for my Happiness and my wellbeing and I choose The Presence of Love to guide me in manifesting the body and life I desire.

 

Awakened to my True Power and having manifested my own healing, Happiness and Abundance, I now am committed to help others to be free of the shackles of their own self sabotaging fearful beliefs and allow their True Self to shine; to create their desired life and body, empowered by The Presence of Love within them.